i'm so sorry for the error display of photos! but i think i'll only try to put them up after A's.. no time to get them up now.. but yea, like everyone's so excited and looking forward to A's.. including me! ain't we?? so that after A's we can go CLUBBING!!! hahahaha.. :P

clubbing and me... i'm definitely going crazy.. crazy from.. not studying enough.. crazy from.. sleeping too much.. arghhhh. u know what i mean, i know i have to help myself but my limbs and my brain just won't listen to me! *screams at brain, then at limbs* my fingers are only good at typing on my blog, not for grabbing a pen and scribbling pages and pages of essay outlines, data reps, math sums and gp compres.. hmph. useless limbs i say. do your work i say!

away from my useless limbs.. i think my mom's experiencing MENOPAUSE.
i told her that all women will experience menopause at one point in their life and you know what? she screamed at me! atrocious behaviour! i was being nice and all, trying to tell her that menopause does not equal end of the world and that it isn't all that bad, and that one day i'll be experiencing menopause too (not that i don't right now) at some point of my life.. blah the blah the blah.. and she told me to shut up and forbid me to say the word MENOPAUSE. wtf? then i gave up and yelled at her for being childish.. it's no use telling her nicely.. she only listens when i yell.. sucks. therefore, if i cant say it in front of her face, i say it here.. menopause, menopause, menopause, menopause, menopause!!!!! super annoying mom i tell you..

oh, and more annoying stuff. ok, maybe not that annoying, but ya. this is definitely not the first time this is happening to me. i hang out with a friend, gotta face her extreme mood swings and get insulted (because she didn't bother about my feelings). i mean, what's wrong? you gave an unpleasant comment, fine i take it. later on, you start sulking and that makes me wonder if i'm that bad a person to hang out with. you were fine one moment and totally @!$%&^@!# the other.. i really cant keep up with your mood swings. i'm always glad to hang out with you but if you're sick of going out with me just tell me, i'll accept that. don't leave me hanging there wondering if the reason was me or pms please, thankyou very much.

hm that felt better. the blog is always a good place to just bleurgh out all that bad stuff bottled up inside..

btw! i miraculously did a gp compre today! whee! congratulate me cos i'm a frequent gp ponner and i hardly hand in work.. blargh. and i ran today! yipee! along with an hons and jason to labrador park.. jason runs fast man. couldnt possibly have caught up with him at all.. the park was cool and breezy, really good place to jog. the total distance is less than 2.4 but it felt more tiring than on the track.. for me that is.. maybe i'm just used to the Sunday jogs with Shamu :) jogging this sunday with her as usual.. love you lots mu! celebrate our.. almost 18 years of friendship! haha.. well, we were neighbours since we were born, and we've been together since! (not that kind of together la!!) oh.. i just realised we haven't taken any recent photos of 2 of us.. eeks. we should have an ij gathering sometime after A's and take tons of photos!!! and makan!!! haha.. i'm always thinking about food.. hm.. Fish and Co! (i like the service at Novena Square's man) or Swensons! er, just not sakae sushi.. haha.

oh speaking of Fish and Co, i had a family dinner there recently, and i have to admit i'm a suaku cos it was our first time there.. -_- the food was so good! but that's not the point. our food was brought by this indian guy, whose service is good, but we dont know his name. when it came to settling the bill, my dad actually blurted out some tamil name, govindasamy or something!! my god! it was so embarrassing! then he went on rambling all those possible tamil names he could call the guy in order to get his attention. goodness. i wish i could've hidden under the table.. i cant recall the names, but boy, they were hilarious. no offence to our fellow indians, but the thought of my dad calling him all those names only made me wanna roll on the floor.. the joys of eating with my dad.. heh.

ok, it's over 12. Happy Deepavali everyone! especially to all the indian families out there.. hm. public hol is never enjoyable when exams are approaching. darn. oops, my bro's waiting for the com.. gotta gooooooooo....

with pretty cher!


with de.ass... haha


with my eldest daughter! germie so cute!


with jason!


with jervie my grandson!


with mimi!!


mr wee!! my bro says he looks cute.. haha.


we look super enthu dont we? my dearest sharn sharn!


with shell! now where's rrrrrrritchie..haha


with sze wenn! pretty girl man..


whee! with my youngest daughter zai!!


alrite.. my dar with karen! yans this is for u!

my dar!


Our Couple Of The Year


my girlfriend! (also angie's wife..haha)


my wife.. at the door?!


honz and bunz.. heh

ahem.. as much as i dont wanna put this up.. i have to.. just look at the pic with me covered k?


we're the background for THE couple..


er.. we were just bo liao? but i llllllllike itttttt... haha

i gtg for choir.. but the farewell assembly pics will be up soon! :)

haha.. took photos of my bro the night before farewell assembly.. cute yea? he's 15 already..
well.. at the beginning of this year, my relationship with my bro wasnt that good.. we were often squabbling.. but now, i'm glad the 2 of us are on good terms! oh, brotherly and sisterly love is wonderful.. heh.

wheeeeee! i missed blogging so much..
fyi, i'm supposed to be in church for pract now, but i decided i'll skip it and go for mass only.. :P
btw! had a great time with jem and greg yesterday at Sakae sushi (Toa Payoh)!! so stuffed after the buffet.. felt like throwing up all the food but nah.. i'm not bulimic. guess i gotta run like 2.4km x2?! it feels worse than a beer belly.. >_<

to walk off calories, i decided to head down to orchard.. was supposed to buy Jobeth's birthday present anyway (her birthday's tomorrow).. so yup. outcome of the walk: shopped for jobeth's prezzie AND for myself.. haha. it's so me ya! :P bought this pair of really cool and cute shoes which, excuse me, happens to be the last pair. lol. 1. it means it's damn hot-selling so i made the right choice. 2. it means that half the island will be spotted with those shoes and i wouldnt wanna be wearing them on the same day as someone(s) else! darn, but heck. i love it! oh darn again, that means i cant shop anymore on Sunday.. ugh. never mind, i'll just contend with window-shopping!

is it the after-effects of sushi-eating that makes me feel hungry? haii.. i knew it was a mistake to go for the buffet, but shouldnt one indulge once in a little while? i should be glad for my anti-snacks kitchen cupboards shouldnt i?

talking about food, Sharn Sharn is coming to my house next tuesday for lunch!! *super excited* the menu is already out, but i'm not telling, cos my sista only knows i'm cooking pasta.. heh. dear sista, dont worry, the food is definitely edible and it's gonna taste great k? just remember to bring yourself with an empty stomach.. hee.

oh man.. i tell you.. my dad is L.A.M.E. he just showed me a picture of a pig with only 2 legs, which is in fact the picture of a whole pig folded where the legs are.. looks real actually, but.. LAME!

so.. should i say, like father like daughter?? haha. not really, i think i'm worse. my idol is probably angie's mom! right angie? or is it your dad? O_o? follow in the example of lame-ness..

oh no.. i forgot to put up farewell assembly photos.. hm, that reminds me. averted a disaster that day by scooting off.. that day was real hilarious.. besides angie and i having to take photos with sammy (btw i insist that i'm a third and innocent party, angie and sammy are happily married), there were happy (or rather forced) photos of sharn and peter! and my dar yans and her beloved Mr Potato.. in bliss man those 2.. they are absolutely compatible! oh yea, i thought mr G was quite happy with his G-strings.. lol. will never forget that day.

before i forget, cher, i finally read the blog, but not quite like what you described. haha. relatively interesting, and quite surprised by some stuff.. but that's about it.. time to start a new life, one of new hopes and dreams.

*cough* i'm not supposed to be here, but i couldnt resist the temptation..
i'm having a real bad sore throat now, but it was worse yesterday.. i couldnt even speak without hurting my throat.. dear sharn, it's not your fault.. i guess it's just that my antibodies were not working well.. heh. i guess everyone's studying so hard we've neglected our health..

i feel like an idiot though, after i've decided i'm going for choir pract regardless of A's being round the corner, i get sick. grrrreat.

btw, is it really necessary to let him know how i feel about him since it is the end of school? actually i'd rather he mistake someone else for me.. i dunno what i'm afraid of, just that right now, i dont want him to know. then again, do i have a choice? he already knows. ahh, the complexity of my situation. call me a coward, or avoiding the situation or whatever, but i'm gonna run away.

btw, js, if u stop bugging us non-stop to go k-box, we might go k? seriously, the more i hear about it, the less keen i am to go. fullstop.

i wont forget what mr wee said: i'm not giving up on you, so dont you give up on yourself. despite feeling quite unsure, i'm going to perservere. so i'm going off now.. ha. to make sure i get my econs right.

btw, i guess i wouldnt be blogging for quite a while.. it's not like i used to blog super regularly anyway, but that i'd be blogging even less? oh, the joy of blogging and reading blogs would be gone for now. somebody pls kick me if i start blogging crazily everyday.

talking about kicking myself, i really want to, for going back to choir.. i dont mean to say anything bad about choir at all.. it's just that i took a break at a wrong time and this only proves that i'm really not thinking right. now that A's is in less than a month, i might have to take a break again, which i totally feel bad about. i like going for practice, but it really takes up a lot of mental strength. 4 to 7 in church, singing.. and singing.. and night practice has begun as well.. so by the time i get home i just feel like plopping down onto the bed, so much time is wasted recharging. charlene (choir) was asking me when my A's was.. and i felt damn bad telling her i might disappear again in a few more weeks.. i'm back in choir for only 2 weeks and i'm leaving again soon?! esp when they've begun practice for cantata.. then again, i'll be in rome by mid dec.. but still! i'm at a loss.. i mean, i could always just only go for mass..

ok, angel and devil are exchanging fists within my head.. i'm singing for God, so i should go for mass! at least singing for mass will keep me close to God, besides the prayers. hope mona wouldnt mind me not going for practice.. ack.

lastly, i wanna thank an hons and sharn my dearest sista for all the encouragement that u 2 gave.. love u 2 lots! *hugz* i will hold on.. hopefully effectively.

oops.. i didnt realise the photos couldnt upload.. hm, funny that i could see them on my IE..

well anyway! today's Germie's birthday! Happy 18th Birthday gurl!

ok, back to some past stuff.. i think many might be wondering why i was unusually calm about him getting my no. Well, i couldnt have hung myself or go screaming around the school would I? honestly, i cant do anything and i most prolly wont.. but i'd appreciate it if my friends would kindly stop slapping my back and screaming my name in his presence..thankyou. even if what hui says is true, i dont think any response will come from me.. i dunno. you'd know when an infatuation is over, it's over. that's it. maybe i'd still find the person appealing, but nope, it's over. time to focus on more important things at hand.

seriously, am i someone who's incapable of passing gp? i have no idea, and i honestly-serious-to-the-core cant explain what a mess i'm in. was it the fact that i was thinking about pursuing a course in polytechnic in the midst of mugging?.. that made me feel i wasnt fit to be in a jc or rather reconsidering my academic plans? my grades are a mess, my brain's in a mess, so what's new?

peer pressure can be damn pressurizing. a complex feeling that i cant express in just a sentence? i dont wanna ramble here.. and i dont have the time? all i can say is that things arent going smoothly and i haven been praying hard enough. secondary and junior college.. it's a different thingy altogether.. i lack the enthusiasm, the liveliness, the perserverance and hopefulness i used to have.

i wish for a fairy godmother,
a shining wand;
a gentle tap is all i need,
to set all my problems free.
to put my mind on the right track,
to right my frustration,
and maybe hopelessness?
i may not be eloquent, outstanding,
or out-of-the-ordinary;
just requiring the guide,
a heavenly intervention
before i go insane.